#7: Megan Fox

She turns me on, no homo. My best friends will probably (most likely read this ) and make fun of me over a burrito in a couple of days, after reading my first statement.

ANYWHO, this weekend was full of fun I suppose, as I try to let go of something long and in my past for about 4 years now, someone else is starting to take up most of my day.

I have the bestest friends in the world, because they sat in a parking lot for about an hour and waited to make sure I didn't get murdered. However, while i sit and see how much this new intriguing person is taking up and my time and being open and honest and real for the first time in a long time... I still feel like I'm crazy. Like I'm missing something? I think it's just me being the cold hearted stupid bitch I can be, no matter how much I really want and love having this new in my life.. will i sabotage this too? Like i sabotage everything that can make me a better person? Maybe all I need is MEGAN FOX.

This song ( even though it's the movie's & on sam's blog most likely) is making the life right now, the words. oh the words. Thanks pil for showing me and thinking i didn't know it before the movie trailer .

Somethin’ filled up
my heart with nothin’,
someone told me not to cry.

But now that I’m older,
my heart’s colder,
and I can see that it’s a lie.

Children wake up,
hold your mistake up,
before they turn the summer into dust.

If the children don’t grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We’re just a million little god’s causin rain storms turnin’ every good thing to rust.

I guess we’ll just have to adjust.

------------p.s i miss my mom and i dreamt of her today.-----------