I feel so much and want so much, but can't grasp any of it. It is such a weird feeling, like being high and coming down - or better yet, being in love and getting your heart broken. I am floating in the in between stages of my life and it feels so strange. I had a taste of the happiness that I could experience, and it's not like I am not happy where I am ; don't get me wrong. It's quite the opposite of that, I am very happy- it's just I am at this road right, and the road has a fork but not with just two paths ... more like six. There are these six paths to take, and I have never been good at decisions like these, I always feel like I am missing out on something. Sometimes I feel like I developed this problem after Brandon and I really broke up, it involves getting bored very easily and always being in need of constant change. A fein for growth. What am I going to do? Who knew that driving to California and back would make me so emotional... All I want to do is talk and hold on to all the things I saw and did, and all the people I met but I know I can't do that. I feel so free, so I am going to go with it. I wish I could heal everyone I love, and make their aprils the springtime of their lives because they deserve it.
P.S I might go post crazy.
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